Untold Stories
As those of you who are aware of my writing style, you know I can get ideas on what I might like to write about from many sources…music, books I’m reading, dreams, Harry Potter is a huge idea farm … and of course, conversations.
Believe it or not, this idea came from a crossword puzzle. I do several most days to keep the brain somewhat working. I think it helps a bit.
See if you agree…
A clue in this crossword puzzle was a quote from Maya Angelou; “There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you”
Think about it.
How many of us are suffering from holding an untold story within our hearts? Maybe even our souls? Most often, the story is a hurtful one. And it more often than not, was established when we were young.
Mine starts as a very small child, even before a toddler. The things that were done to me were and are most dreadful. And even more so because they were done by folks who were meant be my protectors.
But I’ve told my story. It lies within my heart as a lesson now. And I share it as a lesson for others who have a story similar to mine. Or as proof that we can overcome our scars and use them for good.
I often wonder how some folks can overcome a hurt so deep that they struggle into their adult life until they see the light and move forward, beyond the pain while others drag that pain with them and use it to prove that they aren’t worthy when they really are. We all are. We just need to work through that lesson and move forward.
I feel sad when someone like that comes across my path. I try to help but that can only be accomplished when the help is wanted, whether needed or not.
And I pray for those who I read about in the news (though I don’t follow the news as much anymore) who use their hurt to validate poor behavior, even criminal behavior.
I wish we all could heal from the pains we have encountered. What a wonderful world we would have then. Then there would be no need for wars or cheats, or hording…we would all understand and love each other.
Your choice or just going with the flow?
I’ve been away from writing for a bit. Retired from Unity Spiritual Center of Coastal a few years now and the urge has been in the back of my mind (and most likely, my heart!) for some time now. So, here I go, with a few thoughts. Let me know what you think…
I was reading a book, “A Quantum Convergence” by CA Farlow, and there was a statement by one of the main characters about whether she was making the choices in her life or were the choices being made for her. She was forced away from the person she had saved and then returned to their city, only to be forced away, so she was questioning her life and the choices made.
Were they really her choices or were they just taking what was laid in front of her?
I was really struck by that statement. I went back and read it over again several times. It made me think.
And it made me question how I made my choices throughout my life.
And I must say, many times I didn’t make the choice as to what I was going to do next….I just went along with whatever flow was happening, often to my detriment.
I would have to say, much of my young adult life was a mess of choices that should never have been made. What was I thinking!!!???!! (I’ve asked myself THAT many, many times!)
Well, that’s the thing, isn’t it? I wasn’t thinking. I was letting ego make my choices. I was letting others make the choice for me. And too often they were not good choices.
I’ve tried to apologize to folks I may have hurt emotionally on my way to being an adult. There were many. If you haven’t heard my heartfelt apology, here it is….I am truly sorry.
How about you? Are you making true choices for yourself? Are you considering what it is you truly what for yourself? Or are you letting ego get in there and choose for you? Or even worse, letting others force the choice on you!
Are you taking the easy choice or are you really considering what’s at stake?
I know, please, from my experience, that I often just went along with what was placed in front of me instead of thinking it through.
Oh, I did make some great choices along the way. Putting myself through college was a blessing in disguise. It got me out of the house and away from that toxic family, at least for a bit.
I chose to pursue my teaching job, thankfully.
I chose to get therapy. And to work on having a good relationship with my mother which was probably one of the most important I ever made.
I choose to get involved with a spiritual community, Unity. That was a major step in healing. It has been a wonderful experience for me.
Coming to Delaware to start a Unity Spiritual Community once I was certified was a great choice. And it was a necessary choice to leave that community 8 years later.
I ask you to really look at how you live your life. How you make your choices. If you ARE making the choice. Really think it through.
Please let me know your thoughts. I LOVE a good discussion! On my site at www.metaphysicalfoodforthought.com
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