Let’s talk about betrayal…Seems appropriate seeing as this is Easter week. We could go into all the metaphysical meaning behind Easter; we know it all according to Charles Fillmore and other like him. The important meaning is what it means to you, and only you can determine that. Oh, I could help you get there, and if you wish to have that discussion, let me know.
I choose betrayal to write about because of some ‘stuff’ that I’m going through. And some of what has been brought up through all that’s happening is betrayal. I guess all that I thought I had resolved from my past-childhood, young adult, prior relationships, missteps I’ve taken-aren’t really all resolved.
I know, I know, you all think I’m ‘there’ already. Ha! You are sorely mistaken. True, I have come a long way from where I was…thankfully. But there is a lot more to do, a lot more to learn.
So, betrayal. What started this? I have to have surgery and there is a possibility that the cancer I fought against and won, has returned. So, betrayed by my body, again. Not just the bad knees so no more morning run, bulging lower back so very little gardening, arthritis in all the joints that wake me at night and creak each morning; betrayed by possibly the return of cancer.
The other big betrayal is by truly dear friends who choose not to trust me, to hide from me. It’s none of my business, right? We just finished Byron Katie’s “Loving What Is”, and I know that’s right. None of my business. It still hurts and it brings up another deep hurt that happened years ago when this same friend choose not to trust me but, instead believed someone else.
We always think we are past long ago hurts, that is until something like this brings it all up again. And how do we release betrayal. I guess we go through it all again, resolved that it’s past, promise to live in the present, and pray.
My friend will be visiting soon and we’ll talk about it all. And resolve it. Why? Because we love each other and that’s what love does…Resolve the issues so we can live in the present.